4am and lost in thought. Thinking of dreams unrealized and promises broken. Leadings of God not followed and the unhappy consequences of those actions. Praying a little. “God, you know what I want to do with my life, right?”, even as I look forward at the years which lie ahead to realize that the number …
I wish
Hobbes, I wish That when we tried I’d been less broken And more alive. - That I’d been stronger And not that reed Bent and bruised Unsure of its own strength Or ability To grow straight and tall. - I wish that fate hadn’t scooped you up And dropped you on another continent Across the …
To Love or Not to Love
Pain or no pain, Happily ever after, or happily never after, We only have today to love or not to love.
Do you…
When you lie down at night Do you think of me? Does my name Cross your mind Warm your heart Touch your lips In prayer? - Do you wonder if I, too, see the moon? Or the stars Suspended in azure Since the ones In your eyes Are hidden from my view? - I wake …
Rosebush
The tiny apparatus beneath my tongue, The one that forms a phrase, and gives me strength to speak it, Disappeared whenever I saw him. Words - once friends, companions, Would flee. His face, so striking, It rendered me speechless. His beauty - erased every eloquent phrase From my memory. And it wasn't like he was …
The 5th Wave – A book review.
I read _The Fifth Wave_ this week; A book I wanted to complete before seeing the movie. It was prose and science fiction in one book. I've never read a book quite like it. The characters are developed well and I bonded with a couple of them even while waiting to get a good grasp …
Win their heart.
When I compare the woman I am today with the woman I was when I was young, I grieve. Young me was downright mean at times. I'm sorry for those days. Life has a way of teaching us what matters. Who matters. You sit on the couch, involved in a heated argument, and your mouth …
Coals in my Stocking
This holiday season was blessed. I had a warm glow in my heart nearly every single day. Nothing could extinguish the joy. Tiny coals were glowing in the ashes of my heart. Unexpected gifts, Tiny mementos found their way into my home and into my hands. A bear that my cousin gave my daughter in …
I am no bird. No net ensnares me.
This may be one of my favorite quotes in the world. And it's so hard to choose just one. Being in a very authoritarian marriage, where our church preached something called "Spiritual Authority", a concept backed up by many biblical scriptures, A woman was to submit to her husband whenever there was an impasse in …
A Pearl
I knew him long ago, and upon seeing him again after the passage of time, I saw him as he was, without filters - without the preconceived notions that I'd developed during the abusive childhood and teen-aged seasons of my life. I loved him as half-woman, half-child, barely grown-up, When men were typically mistrusted. And …
...Just Thoughts... 